One of the things I love about life is that nobody knows what’s going to happen next. No matter who you are, or what you’ve got, no body knows, and no-one ever will. Just when you think things are the worst they could ever be, something amazing will pop out if the woodwork and turn everything around or you- and vice versa unfortunately but hey ho! I do find this a pretty stressful thought to deal with though, as I’m one of those people who has my ‘perfect life’ all planned out in my head, and I know I’ll 100% be disappointed if I don’t achieve it. Is that silly? I feel like social media, instagram and tumblr especially, are getting our hopes up, and essentially building us up for disappointment- that sounds pretty deep and depressing… sorry! I’m notorious for being a realist- or ‘pessimist’ as the optimists like to call it- so by no means and I dreaming beyond my means (I hope), but following all these instagram-perfect girls really doesn’t help.
I wish I could be an absolute free spirit just floating around this planet without a care in the world. Experiencing things and living every moment like it’s my last. Travelling the globe with nothing but my backpack, and seeing all the things I want to see in this world while I’m still young and don’t need to rely on a catheter. BUT… I also want to achieve big things, the things I’ve worked and strived for over the past 5 years since I left High School, the things I’ve wanted since I was a little girl. And lets face it, you can’t do the first option without money, which in this day and age you gotta slave for- sorry hunnys. It’s a vicious cycle isn’t it?!
Unfortunately you just physically can’t tick both of those boxes, I’m accepting that I’m paving my own path in life, and whatever happens, happens for a reason, whether I knew about that reason in my ‘perfect life’ plan or not. Hopefully I’ll learn to live a more care-free life, and still get to do all the things I want to do, and I hope everyone else manages it too. Happy Sunday peeps.